My Crazy Life

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012!

2012-01-01T20:50:00.005-06:00

What a whirlwind year 2011 was. There were many good things that happened, but there was more than enough stress to go around, sad times, and trying times.

I'll try to touch some highlights of each month (I didn't write much in the past year, so much of this will come from memory).

January: I don't remember anything from January. Edited: I learned to start IVs.

February: I passed LPN boards.

March: On March 13 we had to put our beloved Jessi to sleep. It's so weird still that she's not here. It's my first new year in about 14 years that she hasn't been here. Just before I started this post I finally changed my profile picture to Cookie. I better quit before I start crying.

April: We moved back to O-town. Closer to school, out of Helltown.

May: I started Depo shots. Just now finally getting everything back in order. That shot made the summer and fall ROUGH.

June: I think I planted the garden then.

July: My sister's spouse beat her up. It broke my heart. I've never wanted to hurt someone more in my life; I'm NOT a violent person, but seeing the pictures of what he did to her made me snap.

August: I started my preceptorship. Loved it.

September: Hubby and I celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary. Some days it seems like just yesterday we got married, other days it seems like we've been married 100 years. I LOVE that man, he completes me. I'm not sure what I've done to deserve such a wonderful man, but I hope I keep doing it.

October: I don't remember.

November: I officially finished all of my nursing classes, but found out I have to redo microbiology and an arts/philosophy elective before I can take RN boards. I really love my photography class.

December: Had me taking lots of pictures and helping hubby at his job (since I don't have a job yet and my classes don't take up much time it gives me something to do and I get to spend time with him, a double bonus :)

In this coming year of 2012 I've set a goal to lose 80 pounds, be a better person and wife, pass my RN boards, find a good place to live, find a job, and stop procrastinating so dang much. I'm very determined to accomplish ALL of these goals and am ready to take them on head first. I suppose I could blog more often too :)

Secret Santa, Revealed

2011-12-19T17:07:00.004-06:00

I got my Secret Santa box in the mail the other day. I was super-curious who got me and what they were going to send. She did good. :) I'm super-excited to try the different rubs and some Sticky Fingers BBQ sauce, not sure if I've ever had mustard-based BBQ sauce, but it sure looks yummy! Thank you :)

Day 9

2011-07-10T11:56:00.004-05:00

What is the most important lesson that you learned from your own mother (or other primary caretaker)? What do you imagine the name of your Grandmother's blog would be and what would she write about?

Whew, these are a couple of totally loaded questions Miss Calli.

I guess I'd have to say the most important lesson I learned from my mom was to treat others as you want to be treated. She may not have liked certain people, but she wholeheartedly believed that everyone should be treated nicely and with respect. I don't believe I ever heard my mom be rude to anyone...no matter how crappy they treated her, if they provided crappy customer service, etc. She might go to the car or in the other room and cry about it, but she was never rude or impolite in return. That's just how she was (and that's honestly something I see in myself). I sometimes wonder if she thought that if she was always polite and respectful to people it would eventually rub off (I sometimes think that). I know there are days I totally suck at this, but I try. People still tell me how nice she always was...I hope after I'm gone people can say that about me too.

Now, for Grandma's blog. I have 3 women I considered to be "Grandma" when I was growing up. One was my mom's mom, another my dad's mom, and another a distant cousin with whom my dad stayed with for some reason or another (I've never been told why). My mom's mom raised 7 kids, operated a grocery store, and had us grandchildren over the summer months, planted tons of flowers and trees. She also chopped wood and did farm chores. Her husband helped at the store, dabbled with farming and as an electrician. I bet she'd have some stories to tell. Maybe the name of her blog would be "Jane of All Trades".

My dad's mom lived in California, raised 4 sons, and made lots and lots of quilts, blankets, and afghans by hand. I don't feel like I ever really "knew" her and always felt like she played favorites with a couple of the grand kids (obviously, not me). She seemed like a nice enough lady, but, I guess I just really never felt that connected to her. Maybe, "Quilt Squares and White Hair" would be her blog name?

My other Grandma is the cousin. She is one hell of a great cook, lost one child at birth and another in the Vietnam war. She took us under her wing and we never felt like we weren't her grand kids. She taught me how to cut corn off the cob just right so it'd freeze well. They always had a bunch of cats running around, and a couple dogs. And the guest bedroom was always just the right temperature. I would LOVE for her to have a food blog. In fact, I was insanely craving one of her brownies. I have the recipe, so do other people, and NO ONE has been able to make them just like hers. SO SO SO good. Fried chicken, fried okra, mashed potatoes & gravy, creamed corn, biscuits & gravy, anything she makes is delicious! Sorry Pioneer Woman, but I think my grandma would probably out cook you any day (or at least in her younger days, as she's 80-something now and doesn't get around like she used to.). I think I'd like to see her blog named "Food from the Heart".

Days 6, 7, & 8

2011-07-08T14:55:00.004-05:00

Day 6: When was the last time you tried something new? What was it and what was the result? Have you ever done something just so you can blog about it? I tried something new this morning. The hubby and I decided Cookie needed a bath, so we loaded her up and took her up to the "Pet Wash" here in town. Basically it's like a car wash, but for pets. You go in the door and there's a big stainless steel tub with a ramp and a door to it. On the wall there's your "options" switch and the money slot, just like they have in a car wash. It's got a hose similar to what you would see in the sink of a school cafeteria. We bathed her (smells much better!) and attempted to blow dry her; that lasted all of about 2 seconds before she freaked the hell out. We got her out of the tub and let her run around and shake off to dry (we didn't think about taking a towel with us). I was disinfecting the tub and hubby said "lets get out of here." I turned around and was like ok...and then, I saw it. When neither of us were looking Cookie left her "opinion" on the floor. The place didn't have a garbage can, kleenex, paper towels, bags, nothing and we don't carry that stuff with us either. So, as much as I hate to admit it, we left it. Oops. Apparently, Cookie's thoughts about the place differed from ours. We do have a clean, nice smelling, soft, fluffy dog now though :)

Day 7: What's your favorite thing to eat for breakfast, lunch, and dinner? Do you read food blogs or would you ever consider writing one?
I love food. My most favorite thing for breakfast is hashbrowns with cheese and an omelet from the hospital cafeteria where I used to work. They made everything to order and was most delicious!
Lunch: Curly fries from Arby's. I could eat those every day for lunch and be perfectly content.
Supper (it's not dinner!): Lately, my favorite supper food is anything off the grill. The hubby is an amazing grill cook and the stuff just tastes SO good. Last night we had grilled steak and the night before was Iowa Chops (thick cut pork chops for all you non-Iowans). That stuff is good paired with anything, garlic dill new potatoes, green beans, corn, peas...basically anything from the garden.
I read food blogs from time to time, especially Pioneer Woman. LOVE her. I might consider writing one...

Day 8: If you had to teach something, what would you teach? (If you DO teach, when did you discover your love for teaching/the subject? Do you think blogs can play a role in education?
I teach my patients stuff every day. Weather it's the importance of taking their medication, what a medication is for, why colon prep is so important before a colonoscopy, or wound care or anything in between. I never ever thought I'd be a teacher, but here I am, teaching my patients how to care for themselves and I LOVE it. I didn't have any idea that I would be doing so much teaching in nursing and was actually pretty surprised. I think blogs can play a huge role in education, I've learned so much just from reading the blogs I do. It doesn't matter the subject either, it can be just from reading someone's day-to-day life or it can be an education blog or food blog or whatever. I don't know how many times I've said to my husband "I read on x-blog that you can mix juice with vodka and have an excellent drink." (or whatever the subject may be.)

-Day 5: What do you prefer to do on your birthday?

2011-07-06T20:13:00.002-05:00

What do I prefer to do on my birthday? Fantasy: Go on a fantastic vacation somewhere.
Reality: Well, my birthday is right around Thanksgiving, so it usually consists of getting fat(ter) and happy with loved ones. Then, if we have the money, we go to some Black Friday sales.

When I was younger my brother who's birthday is 6 days before mine, me, and my cousin who is exactly 2 weeks younger than me, would all celebrate our birthdays together at Thanksgiving. Complete with a shared cake.

Summer Camp: Days 3 & 4

2011-07-04T14:36:00.002-05:00

Day 3 -What are your guilty pleasures?
Hmm, well, I guess I'll have to say Sausage breakfast pizza from Casey's (delish!), Wild Cherry Diet Pepsi, and pedicures. The one I have the most is the Diet Cherry Pepsi, it's a must have for any day, then the breakfast pizza even though I probably only have it a couple times a month, and then a pedicure; it's probably been a couple years since I had a professional work on my feet and when I start getting a paycheck again you can bet that'll be one of the first things I get!

Day 4 – What has most surprised you about being an adult? What have you learned about yourself through blogging?: How much it sucks sometimes. As kids, we had it pretty easy. Mom & Dad took care of all the bills, put food on the table, etc. We never had to worry when our next meal was going to be because they took care of that and there was always SOMETHING in the cupboards, fridge, or freezer.

I learned how candid I can be when I don't care about other people's feelings, what they're going to think of me, etc. This is my place and if I want to be Debbie Downer one day and Pollyanna the next, I can.

Summer Camp Day 2:s

2011-07-02T16:59:00.002-05:00

Day 2 -What were you like in high school? What extracurricular activities, if any, did you take part in during high school? Did you consider yourself a writer?

I don't really remember what I was like. I know it was a rather screwed-up time in my life, my dad was having heart problems and my mom had been diagnosed with kidney disease and eventually went on dialysis and then had a transplant. I think most of my actions then were based on me trying to avoid dealing with that stuff. The "good me" had 2 jobs my junior and senior years. I worked at a nursing home and a boarding kennel. I played the cello in the school orchestra, took piano lessons, cleaned my piano teacher's house once a week in exchange for a discount on lessons, showed rabbits in FFA. I never really belonged to any one group/clique. I just kind of did my own thing and if people wanted to be my friend or talk to me, that was fine too. There was also a "bad me" and well, I don't feel like going there right now. I'm not proud of that part of me. And, really? I'd love to go back in time and kick my own ass.

I didn't consider myself a writer then. I knew I favored writing over, lets say math, but that's about as far as it went. I enjoyed writing letters and doing writing assignments for classes. I never thought of writing as a career or anything like that.

31 Days of SummerCamp Day 1: Where you blog

2011-06-30T18:46:00.001-05:00

2011-05-30T10:59:00.003-05:00

Tomorrow, I start the first of 24 weeks that I have left in my nursing program. I'm on the homestretch! I, we, can do this. It's definitely been a group effort in this household! I do the homework and go to classes, hubby busts his ass to put food on the table, in the pet bowls, and gas in the gas tank. His grandma helps tremendously too. I don't know how I'd do this without their help. Talk about Godsends.

Yeah, I know there are other people out there rooting for me, but those 2 are there EVERY. DAMN. DAY. I hope I am making everyone proud. I also want to be able to repay them some day, some how.

I should go work in the garden and plant some flowers I got the other day. But, it's my last day of break and I'm feeling rather lazy. I guess I haven't been totally lazy, I washed clothes that are now hanging out on the line (I love line-dried clothes!) and picked up miscellaneous crap laying in the yard so hubby could mow. I'll probably end up going back out there, I could sure use some more of that sunshine that's out there...wish I could store it up and use it on days I'm stuck in the classroom or rainy days.

Also, last but not least, today is Memorial Day. Thank you to all the veterans past and present for doing what you do. If you get time, go check out Pioneer Woman today. Very touching. http://thepioneerwoman.com/blog/2011/05/memorial-day/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+thepioneerwoman+%28Confessions+of+a+Pioneer+Woman%29 (I know there's a prettier way to do the link but I don't know how to do it.)

Where Does the Time go?

2011-05-14T13:55:00.003-05:00

My poor blog, it has so much dust on it. Poor thing.

I have been super-duper busy.

Since I wrote last there has been a shitload of stuff that's happened and since I'm so lazy, it's going in bullet points.

We moved. Now living in an RV at hubby's grandma (no, it's not as bad as it seems).

Jessi stopped walking, had to take her to the vet on a Sunday morning (that is as awful as it seems).

I have 1 more final and 2 clinical days left of this term and I'll be halfway done with this school year and 2 (12 week) terms away from my Are In (that's an awesome thing).

The truck died today on the way to K-Mart and we are now a 0 car family(in the words of my friend Calli, that sucks giant donkey balls). Good thing a bus ride is only $1.50 or a month pass is $35.

I had spring break and got my garden planted, the weeds/creeping charlie pulled from around the peonies. (good, now I have a place for my therapy all summer)

My garden is sprouting like crazy...seeds and weeds. (good and bad)

There's is the cutest baby bunny that hangs around at the back of the RV. LOVE watching him/her. (good)

Got a depo shot (so far, so good. I was soooo tired of bleeding/cramping for no good reason and tired of worrying about "leaking". I know, TMI, oh well).

Got my hair cut at the local beauty school. I think that girl did a heck of a lot better job than the lady I was going to with 15 + years experience. (will definitely go back, half-price, better cut, OK!)

Got stabbed in the back (no not literally. Just people who I thought were my/our friends in the small town we lived in turned out not to be friends after all. Sad, but such is life apparently).

Seriously considering moving some place warmer when I'm done with school. Have been doing research and some of those places cost of living is comparable to here, pay is more, and the weather is milder. Am getting kind of excited at the possibility. (No snow, year-round garden, totally different atmosphere, I like.)

I think that's it for now. :)

Slacker

2011-02-04T16:11:00.002-06:00

I know I said I was going to try to write once a week, but it's looking more like once a month. Oh well, I'm busy. That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it!

Last Saturday I took my Ell Pee In boards. Every person I talked to, I swear, was on a mission to make me nervous. "Oh, I got nervous when they scanned my hand." "I got nervous when I got my ATT." Me? I got a wee bit nervous, but mostly excited. A friend told me how to check and see if I passed because I'm too tight/broke to pay for expedited results. The cheater way was confirmed by Google and by a trusted instructor. Unofficially, I passed. Officially, I'm still waiting for the paper work. Thirty-seven more weeks and I'll be officially done with school and ready to take my Are In Boards. Three more weeks and I'll be done with this term.

I can't wait to be totally done with school so I can feel like I'm contributing something to this family. Right now it seems like my main thoughts and time are school, school work, clinicals, and tests, leaving very little time/room for other important things (hubby, sex life, work, sleep). There always seems to be time to argue though. The arguing? I hate. I hate it more than anything. I don't use the word hate loosely or often. After talking to other classmates, this seems to be a common thing. Thirty-seven more weeks. I, we, can do it. We've gone through worse and we're still here. WE CAN DO IT!

I also found out something this past month. I love working with peds. I didn't think I'd like it at first (hello overprotective guardians and whiny brats!) but I was really surprised and enjoyed myself, even if there was some crying and lots of questions (all totally justified, I might add).

Jessi's getting old. This winter hasn't been too kind to her. My poor furry baby. There are days I wish she'd just go to sleep and not wake up....for her sake and ours. I don't want to have to make the decision for her.

I'm saving the best for last. My hubby. He's working so hard to support me. A lady came in the store the other day and basically accused him of not supporting me. How dare she! He built the store with his own two hands and works in it every day to make sure I have gas money to get to school, there's food in the cat/dog bowls, and food on the table. Yeah, he's so unsupportive. Dumb bitch, get your facts straight before you come in with false accusations. He has given up SO much just so I can go to school and has put up with me through all of this. Thank you sweetheart, I will repay you, I promise :)

60/60

2011-01-05T20:18:00.002-06:00

Today, would've been my mom's 60th birthday. And no, she wouldn't mind me telling her age. Mom embraced her age and was never afraid to tell anyone how old she was. In fact, she was looking forward to being 55 so she could get the "senior discount" at certain places (other places said you had to be 60). She met her goal and got the 55-year-old senior discount.

A few other important things happened today too. I got my ATT (authorization to test) for my LPN. So, now I'm scheduled to take my boards on the 29th of this month.

Today, was also the first day of my Couch to 5K. I just got home from my first workout about half an hour ago. It felt GREAT. I kinda forgot how much of a laxative effect one gets from running/jogging. Holy crap! No pun intended.

What 2 better ways to honor my mom's memory than to take care of myself and be one step closer to my LPN and soon, my RN. She met her goal, now I'm going to meet mine. Awesome.

To Mom: Thank you for being such an inspiration to all of those around you. Everyone who ever met you was lucky to know you (and they'll even admit to it). Hope you don't mind me posting it here. This is one of my very favorite pictures of you. I love your smile, and, as Gayle said can "almost hear the giggle".

Holy Moly!

2010-12-27T19:31:00.003-06:00

My life has turned into one big clusterf*ck. Not that that's a bad thing though. I LOVE being busy and having things to do.

Since I last wrote, I finished my LPN year with flying colors and just today got finger-printed so I could take my boards. I'll continue on and get my RN and am now about halfway done with my first term of my RN year. I have clinicals 2 days a week and class 2 days a week. Thank God for my generous grandma too; she called me up and wanted to pay for me to take my boards. Soooooo nice!

Hubby (and I) also opened a Little shop in our town. That's been keeping us busy too. When we're not open, we're pricing stuff or going to get stuff to put in the shop.

We finally got Chloe "fixed" last week. Yay, no more in heat cat! But, I noticed today she must've pulled out one of her middle stitches. It looks ok though; no open areas noted and it's not red, bleeding, or anything else. Plus it's one of the middle sutures so there are other sutures around the area. I guess I'll just keep an eye on it...not many more days until they were supposed to come out anyway.

Got a "new" little Bronco II. It's cute! It need(ed) some tune-up stuff on it...so as soon as hubby gets that fixed we'll be returning my dad's van that we've been borrowing forever. I bet he'll be glad to see it again and I'll be glad not to have to keep putting gas in the little gas hog.

I can't even remember if I wrote that we got a new kitty over the summer. He's all black and named Tig (yes, after the Sons of Anarchy character). He is HUGE now. If I had to guess I'd say he weighs 10-11 pounds at least. He easily outweighs Chloe.

My in-laws' 3 dogs have all passed-away and gone to the Rainbow Bridge this year. They've had the one dog since she was a pup and the other 2 since they were born (they're puppies of the oldest one). So sad to see them go :( We just saw the last one yesterday and within hours of us leaving she passed. They said she was waiting to see us one last time....I guess they were right. Little Turkey.

King Fluff aka Jorge aka bunny, our lion head bunny passed away a few weeks ago too. We woke up one morning and he was just gone.

Everyone else is alive and doing well though...knock on wood.

I guess that's all I can think of right now. Am waiting for a friend to drop by the store.

One-hundred Percent Mental

2010-08-19T16:01:00.003-05:00

I am in shock. I was just checking my grades to see if my scores from finals were up yet. They are. And Dude, I got 100% on my mental health final. I was scared of that one because the first test I took in that class I failed miserably. Sooo happy. Good thing I got a bottle of vodka and some apple cranberry juice on the way home. Yes, yes yes!!

Cheesy

2010-07-20T19:18:00.003-05:00

Saw something interesting at clinicals today. Don't read further if you're easily grossed out.
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Ok, you've been warned. You know how "normal" urine is supposed to be yellow/amber without any cloudiness or sedimentation? Well, what I saw come out of a fresh cath looked reddish with chunks of yellowish, cheese curd-looking pus. Poor patient.

It's a Boy

2010-07-16T19:41:00.004-05:00

Welcome to the family, Tig K. Phuckit. Birthdate, unknown. Joined us July 11, 2010

Book Giveaway

2010-05-22T22:36:00.001-05:00

If you go here: http://thegirlfromtheghetto.wordpress.com/2010/05/22/if-you-follow-me-by-malena-watrous you can enter to win a book from the fabulous Girl From the Ghetto! She's all sorts of awesome :)

Wowza!

2010-05-16T13:29:00.004-05:00

It's been much too long since I've written anything of content here. Between actually going to classes, clinicals, homework and studying, and trying to spend some sort of time with the hubby, I haven't had time to do much of anything. Hubby usually gets the short end of the stick, unfortunately. I'm glad that after Tuesday I'll have 13 days off before the new term starts and can hopefully make up some of that time.

I really like doing clinicals. Some people bitch about it, but I don't get it. Clinicals consist of taking care of people and, as nurses, that's exactly what we're going to be doing. I think the people that bitch are probably going into the wrong field. I'm very thankful for the facility that allows us to do our clinicals there and for the residents who allow us to ask them all sorts of personal questions, doing physical assessments, etc. They're helping us more than they'll ever know.

My in-person classes have also gone well too. Some people say they're really hard, but I think if you just apply yourself, listen to the lectures, take notes, and study it isn't so bad. At this point I'm carrying a 91-92%, and I don't and never have considered myself an "excellent student". I even "get" the math. I have NEVER been strong in the math category, but it seems to click with me now. I don't know how many hours were spent crying about math problems when I was in elementary, middle, and high school. I guess it all pays off now.

Next term, the one that starts after break, I'll be doing another clinical, Developmental Ps*ch, Maternal/Child, and Mental Health. I got my books the other day. Now I just need to get some new binders and will be all ready to go. The book load is a little lighter this term, it only took 1 sack from bookstore to carry them all instead of 3.

I'm also applying for a scholarship. I got my reference letter from an instructor the other day, now all I need is my high school transcript and send in my app. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed, every little bit of funding helps and, I'd be stoked to say I got a scholarship, I've never gotten a scholarship.

Now, something besides school.

I've been walking the dogs almost every day when I get home, usually right before or after dinner. I think it's been good for all of us. All my pants are getting looser (something that excites me), and I was noticing this morning that my legs actually look like legs instead of sausages. Not that there's anything wrong with sausage, but legs shouldn't look like that. The bunny hasn't been so lucky. We moved him from the backroom to by the back door by Chloe's litter box. I picked him up the other day, he's turning into a little butterball. It's much easier to just walk by and give him treats now, plus he looks at us like "where's mine" so you feel obligated to give him something. I think he likes being able to see all the action, even if all the action just consists of Chloe using the litter box, humans and dogs going in and out the back door, and seeing us sit on the toilet.

Hubby figured out how to make homemade tomato/pasta sauce. It is SOO SOO good. I really don't think I'll buy or eat the store bought stuff again if I don't have to. This is the first Sunday in quite a few weeks he hasn't made it. But, he gets off the hook as he made smoked pork butt and turkey legs yesterday. I've taken pasta for lunch to clinicals for probably the last 4-5 weeks. It's gotten so bad that I had one girl tell me I was going to turn into lasagna. I don't care. It's better than turning into whale blubber or something like that. One girl told me she'd like to trade husbands. No thanks! I can't help that I'm spoiled :)

I should go do some chores. We got a bunch of flower seeds yesterday and I have clothes that need washed before tomorrow too. I'm going to try to write a little more too. I forget how therapeutic it is and I also like having a journal to look back on.

Photo Friday: Fridge Edition

2010-05-15T10:52:00.002-05:00

Photo Friday: Finals Week Edition

2010-05-12T18:16:00.004-05:00

My desk, unretouched. Just to clarify, I don't eat cat food-I just have to sit it up on my desk so the cat can eat it but the dogs can't. I have to admit also, that the book in the middle is NOT mine. Hubby was walking by and thought our pictures looked similar, so we set them together and took a picture :)

Photo Friday, Sunday Edition

2010-04-25T19:47:00.003-05:00

Pantleg (look how much slack there is!)

I think it looks lonely

Things that Make Me Happy

2010-04-23T14:30:00.003-05:00

Because I can't stand all this negativity, I'd like to remind me of stuff that makes me happy.

Getting a 92% on my most recent test.
Carrying a 90% or higher in all my classes.
Waking up in Mr. Phuckit's arms (and the smell of his cologne).
That I brought the bunny out of his room and into the main living area today and the dogs aren't even paying attention to him.
Walking around town and seeing all the pretty flowers and smelling lilacs in the air.
My new friends.
The residents at my clinical site.
A homemade mixed CD that hubby made a few years ago. It's been in the CD player all week :)
That I have laundry soap and it smells good.
Herd of cows and their little calves.
The local library is right across the street. AND they are going to order a book specially for me just because I asked nicely.
A couple weeks ago my pants fell down as I was walking the dogs.
I can now pull all my jeans over my hips without unbuttoning/unzipping them.
My boobs aren't shrinking, just my ass.
My arms are getting seriously strong.
My tomato plants are growing.
Fresh broccoli. I think I'm becoming addicted to it.
It's Spring (my favorite season).
Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi.
Coupons for free stuff.
A roof over my head.
Pictures.

Negative Nellie

2010-04-23T14:22:00.002-05:00

The last 2 weeks have put me through the wringer. Starting last Friday, I got up, checked my bank account, and my unemployment wasn't in there. WTF? So, I called around and called around and called around. To make a long story short, Workforce's computer was effed up and shut off my benefits or something like that. I received a call saying I would get last week's payment and this week's payment no later than today. Well, I got up this morning, checked the account, no money!! In fact, Negative money. So, I called around and called around and called around. "You'll get paid Monday" How the hell am I supposed to pay bills, get to school (have to go to school to get my money, but I can't get to school without my money), buy groceries? I've called and emailed a couple news stations, called and emailed the Governor's office, put a call in to the Director of IWD. Here's a big, fat middle finger to ya, IWD! I hate you and you're making my life hell and my hair white and I think I feel a stomach ulcer forming. Grrr!

Smoked Brisket

2010-04-04T19:01:00.004-05:00

On my plate with a potato bun and steamed broccoli. SOOO SOOO SOOO YUMMY!

Freshly cut, waiting for transfer to our dinner plates.

Hoppy Easter!

2010-04-04T18:52:00.004-05:00

Week in Review

2010-03-06T12:28:00.004-06:00

So, this week was a super-productive week. Monday and Tuesday kicked-off my week with clinicals at a nursing home near here. The first day was basically just orientation to the facility (and class), getting introduced to the residents, and listening to lung sounds. Oh, and helping people to the toilet. Tuesday was MUCH busier. We were assigned our "own" resident to take care of. We're supposed to switch residents every couple of weeks. The lady I have is so sweet. The only thing she can do for herself is roll over in bed and feed herself. How she is so sweet and nice is beyond me. I think I'd be a bit bitter. She never gets tired of my questions (if she does she doesn't show it) and is patient beyond belief.

Wednesday, I had my first test of the term. I got 92%! I was so happy and proud of myself. In that class we're to have a test each Wednesday. Hopefully, I can keep up the good work!

Have still been taking the dogs for walks daily (well, I skipped a couple days, but we made up for it by taking extra long walks). We ended up walking a little over 3 miles last Saturday. We just got back from a walk today before I signed on to the computer a few minutes ago. The sunshine and air feel wonderful. I also think it helps Jessi's old bones-she doesn't seem as stiff in the evening on the days we go walking.

Hubby fixed my car yesterday. It needed a wheel bearing. It was quite the production. It's been making this awful grinding, pounding, whistling noise for a few weeks now. We ordered the part online and have had it, but have been waiting for a good time (because of the weather) and money (to by a few more tools) to do it. Yesterday, it started sounding a little different too. We decided it was time to fix it. So, we took it to his grandma's house (where there's an actual driveway). We started by jacking up and taking apart the front passenger's side wheel. It froze. WTF? So, hubby jacked up the driver's side. Good thing he did. It was that side that was bad! It was so bad the tire actually jiggled in and out when you pushed on it. Scary! And to think, I drive about 40 miles a day at 55+ mph...someone has been watching us! I would've bet all the money I've ever made it was the passenger's side making the noise. I was truly shocked! So, he put the passenger's side assembly back together, then proceeded to fix the correct side. The car drives awesome now and doesn't make a single peep! Hubbys' grandma also insisted on getting supper too. We ordered Pastabowls from Dominos. First time we'd had those. They were delicious! I am so, so, so happy and thankful the car is fixed! Thank you, Mr. Phuckit :)

The weather the past few days has been awesome. The snow is melting, the sun is shining, and I just love it. I can even see grass now! It's brown grass, but I don't care, it'll "green up" in a few weeks. It's also been getting lighter earlier. Thursday when I drove to class it was light out on my way there! Love it! Plus, if there are new calves to be seen in a few weeks, I'll be able to see them. I love driving through the countryside and seeing all the new little lives (calves, lambs, foals and whatever else there may be).

I suppose, I should do some studying now.

...And Another Mixed Bag

2010-02-27T08:59:00.002-06:00

So, Joannie Rochette, she's still my hero. She went on to win her bronze medal. From what I've read/seen on the news the competition was fierce and everyone skated really well. I think she's simply amazing and strong.
First week of the new term is done. I've learned SO much already. Wednesday my brain was so tired. I really like my new classes though and I think the information is only going to get more interesting from here.
I have my first test Wednesday. I really need to do my study guide and make my flash cards some time today. I find writing the information repeatedly and in different colors of ink really helps cement it into my brain.
Clinicals start on Monday. I'll have clinicals on Monday and Tuesday each week. I'm ready. I love doing hands-on stuff. I also get to wear my new scrubs.
The sun is shining!
I haven't walked the dogs for the last couple of evenings, I think I'll be making up for it today. Cookie is whining at me as I type and they've already been out twice this morning and I've only been up for about an hour.
I love my pajamas. My in-laws got me a huge gift card for Fashion Bug/Lane Bryant/Catherines at Christmas. I splurged and got a set of pajamas made of bamboo. They are so soft and smooth and comfortable. I'd wear them all day, every day if I could.
Mr. Phuckit's hair is starting to grow out. It's still stubbly, but it's the soft kind of stubbly. mmmmm
I'm addicted to the fresh made popcorn from the gas station. I'm trying to time it just right so when I go get our pop they'll have some popcorn made. Yeah, I'm pathetic.

Mixed Bag

2010-02-24T05:16:00.002-06:00

Today I start new classes. Well, yesterday we had a class in service type thing that lasted all day, but today I have to actually be in a classroom. It's shortly after 5:00 a.m. and I am up and dressed and my bag is stuffed with a gazillion pounds of books. Seriously, there are a gazillion pounds of books in there. My poor bag is so full I can't even zip it. I like starting new classes though, it means I'm getting closer to my goal.
I wish we could watch the Olympics. Being in Podunk, USA we can't get all the channels. I would've loved to watch Joannie Rochette skate. I've read her story online and I think she's my new idol. She lost her mom 2 days ago and skated anyway. Not only did she just skate, she held her shit together, did well, and is now sitting in 3rd place. Wow!
We can watch American Idol, The Bachelor, and soon Dancing With The Stars. DWTS is one of my all time favorite shows, so I'm quite excited!
Chloe is in heat. We should really get her spayed. The constant butt in the air and making pigeon-like sounds are driving everyone crazy; I think the dogs are even annoyed.
Where is spring? I'm tired of wearing layers, long sleeves, coats, and gloves. I just want to get dressed in jeans or shorts and a t-shirt and head out the door and not drag 100,000 pounds of extra clothing along. I'm also really tired of getting cold fingers and nose and toes walking the dogs.
Walking the dogs. I've been doing this every day lately. I think it helps us all. They get to go snoop and I get exercise. I try to go a little farther every day. The other night we went walking (it was dark) and accidentally found 2 hills. I didn't know this town had any hills. It does. Also, that same night, I heard sheep. You know, instead of hearing dogs barking, I heard sheep baaaa-ing. I guess that's what happens when you live in a rural town. I was quite amused.
Hubby's article was in the paper the other day. I mentioned it on here, but am saying it again just because I think it's cool :) The old lady that works at the town gas station thanked us for it yesterday. She said it was appreciated and the only other time the town has made front page news is when something bad happened. Yes, it was on the front page, right underneath an article about Obama!
It's a good thing I don't have a credit card with an unlimited limit that I don't have to pay back. I'd totally buy some of this crap they show on the infomercials-music CD collections, exercise equipment, Cricut, and the list goes on. I'd really like to see if some of the stuff even works. Like the Bullet Express-it looks like it'd make mess and be a pain to clean.

Well, I better finish getting ready. I need to get my lunch together and feed the critters and I should probably let the car warm up for a couple minutes.

Front Page News

2010-02-22T10:29:00.003-06:00

Hubby and his blog made the front page of the local paper today! www.wakeuphedrickiowa.blogspot.com Yay! Awesome!

Oh yum!

2010-02-20T19:49:00.002-06:00

WARNING: This is NOT food post.

My husband shaved his head yesterday. Then he put on a black dress shirt this morning. Man, he looks absolutely DELICIOUS!!

Easily Amused

2010-02-19T14:23:00.002-06:00

I was just checking my stat counter. I'd noticed it had gone up quite a bit in the last couple weeks and finally had time to look at it. Well, a long time ago I wrote a post about Bruce Jenner being an asshole. Apparently, that's how a lot of people have found me-Google-ing something to the effects of "Bruce Jenner, asshole." Well, I decided to try it, I'm #1 out of 87,000 hits for "Bruce Jenner, asshole." Sweet.

I'm also amused at all the different locations people are from. Russia, Poland, Kansas, Fargo, etc.

Thanks for stopping by y'all.

Weekend Meals

2010-02-08T15:28:00.007-06:00

Here are a couple pictures of meals we had this weekend (brought to you by Mr. Phuckit, the amazing cook).

This is a dish he dubbed "Dirty Alfredo" It's basically chicken fettuccine alfredo but I'm not really sure why the sauce is dark instead of white-I don't really care either, it was DELICIOUS. There's a green drink in the background-a sour apple martini, it was yummy too but not exactly the right pairing with alfredo. That's ok though, I drank it all when I was done eating :)

Here's a baked chicken breast (by me) and Italian pasta salad stuffed tomato (by Mr. Phuckit). That was the BEST pasta salad I've EVER had. I even had left-overs of it for lunch today :)

Max(i)

2010-02-07T15:58:00.002-06:00

My in-laws' dog, Max, died this morning. He was a big, goofy, loveable, easy-going, fuzzball. He'll be missed dearly. :(

Rest in peace Max.

Next Term

2010-02-02T14:00:00.002-06:00

I got registered for next term the other day and by the looks of it I'm going to be a busy lady. On Mondays and Tuesdays I have clinical at 6:30 a.m. until 2:30 p.m. Then, Wednesdays and Thursdays I have my "regular" classes from 7:30 a.m. until 5:00 p.m. I'm glad my school practices a 4 day week with 3 day weekends! I've really enjoyed my clinicals this term and am honestly looking forward to them again. Plus, I don't mind mornings at all, especially if I get enough sleep the night before (8 hours is ideal for me). Plus, it's going to be Spring pretty soon and I bet the mornings in this area (very rural) are gorgeous with the freshly green stuff and newborn calves. Bring on Spring term!

Good Friday

2010-01-16T07:59:00.002-06:00

Well, yesterday was a pretty good day, I must admit. I was tired by the end of the day, but I didn't really care.

What did I do yesterday? I had nursing clinicals. It wasn't the first time, but we actually did a lot of hands-on stuff (showers, dressing, toileting, and just other general ADLs and day-to-day stuff). I'd never done any of that stuff before (besides helping my mom at times and she was the one giving me directions "now, grab onto that sheet and pull me over"). It's very rewarding seeing how much they appreciate a good shower, getting fresh clothes, back rubs, and just plain ol' attention.

Then, at the end of the day we learned how to use the scales. We weighed ourselves and our fellow classmates. Apparently, and surprisingly, I've lost approximately 60 pounds since I last gave plasma back in our old town. If I remember correctly that was in July.

I also got to feel what it was like to lay on a bed pan. It sucks. Our teachers firmly believe we should have to try as much stuff as possible so we know what the patients/residents are going through. So, we mock bed-panned each other. I suppose if you had to go bad enough "going" on one wouldn't be a problem, but holy cow it would suck!

And now, for my ego. Heh. I was talking to some of my classmates yesterday and we were talking about marriage and our ages. The one girl wanted to know if I was married (yes) and for how long (8, almost 9 years). She was very surprised and asked me how old I was. I told her. She said "I didn't know you were THAT old." I guess I don't look quite as crappy as I thought I did :)

Weight Watchers Watch their Floor Collapse

2010-01-15T21:36:00.001-06:00

I couldn't help but laugh at this..http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/34881925/ns/health-diet_and_nutrition/

Thanks Candice :)

After

2010-01-03T17:31:00.001-06:00

Chicken & Pasta
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Here's the Tropical Chicken with Bacon after it was cooked and paired on a plate with pasta salad (there was a lettuce salad too, but I ate it before I took the picture). So yummy!!!

Before

2010-01-03T17:29:00.001-06:00

Chicken
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

The hubby made dinner tonight. He's a fabulous cook and always comes up with good recipes. I'll call this one Tropical Chicken with Bacon. This is the before picture (before it went into the oven).

Open Book

2010-01-02T18:06:00.002-06:00

Well, I closed my blog for a few weeks. I'm not a closed person anymore, so having a closed blog isn't me either. If have something to say, I'm going to say it regardless if people like it or not.

Weekend Happiness

2009-12-21T14:32:00.003-06:00

We took a little vacation this weekend (from Friday morning to this morning-Monday). It was SO nice. We didn't really "do" anything, but it was different, and relaxing, and just felt good. We need to do that more often!

Another Find

2009-12-02T20:05:00.001-06:00

Recent Craigslist Find

2009-11-29T20:31:00.000-06:00

Resentment and Screwed-up-edness

2009-11-29T16:14:00.010-06:00

Resentment: Feeling of indignant displeasure or persistent ill will at something regarded as wrong insult, injury. (According to Merriam-Webster dictionary).

As much as I hate to admit it, I harbor resentment. I've done much soul-searching (if that's what you want to call it), talking stuff over in my head and with my husband, and that's the conclusion I've come to. This may surprise some people, it may not, I really don't care either way. They're my feelings and I'm entitled to them.

Anyway, resentment. I resent people. I resent situations. I resent how people do things in certain situations.

For instance, my paternal parent. I don't get him, or his wife. I may or may not have said, he found his current wife only 6 months (I think a little less than that actually) after my mom died. How they met? I don't know for sure and they won't say. What is there to hide, be ashamed about, have to hide? Hell, I met the Mister online in a chat room. Who am I to judge how someone met? Did they know each other before? Are they old friends? Dunno.

Then, later that year, they decided we needed to do Christmas (the first "official" Christmas after my mom died-since she died so close to Christmas I don't count that one). We weren't allowed to just "be". No C, dad's wife, well girlfriend at the time, decided we needed to ALL get together, her, her children, and grandchildren, and us at my dad's house. I was not looking forward to it (I believe I blogged about it then) but no one asked my opinion. So, I just gritted my teeth and took presents. It sucked. Our family Christmases were usually low-key, you get what you can afford and who you want to get for. Then sit around, chat, eat, and open presents. This was with our FAMILY not complete STRANGERS we just met as we walked in the door.

Then, she and dad got married. It was supposedly "just a trip". My little sister straight up asked him if they were getting married. He flat-out denied it. I had a feeling, but thought he'd tell us beforehand. You know, a warning. No, I get a call in the middle of my workday, AT WORK. Oh, "by the way, we got married 2 days ago." Nice. Thanks for blindsiding me. Now, I don't have a problem with people being happy, but, don't lie about your intentions. Certainly don't call your most emotional child at work and tell her your "good news." I had a terrible rest of the day.

Let's go back in time a little bit. Dad told me that C's granddaughters wanted to call him Grampa (this was way early in their relationship and much earlier than I thought they should be dragging CHILDREN, you know, people less than 18 years old, into it). I asked him why? The answer I got, "they don't really have a grampa, I guess." Uh, so? Come to find out, now a few years later, they do have a grandfather. Maybe someone lied? Dunno and I'm sure I'll never know.

I've been thinking too. As a woman, why would you WANT to date someone who just lost his wife so recently? I would not think his head would be in the right place just yet, no matter what he says. I mean, I think if you truly cared for someone, you'd want to let them grieve a little while first and get used to the other person not being there before jumping right into a hard/fast relationship. I would feel like I was taking the former spouse's place, a substitute, if you will.

Another reason I harbor resentment. My mom's things. Why does someone who didn't even KNOW my mom get to be surrounded by her things and enjoy them? Why does someone who didn't even know my mom get to live in a house paid for by her hard work? Why does someone who didn't even know my mom get to sleep in my mom's bed? Why does someone who didn't even know my mom get to cook with my mom's oven? Why does someone (and her children) who didn't even know my mom get to drive her van? Why does someone who didn't even know my mom get to enjoy all these benefits while her children are stuck with nothing but memories and a few little things here and there? It's not fucking fair and I don't think it's right either. My mother was a very kind and generous person, but I don't think she worked her whole life for someone to enjoy "earnings" and her children to be left out in the cold.

Now, I don't have a problem with people being happy. I believe everyone needs a little ray of sunshine, even serial killers and rapists need a little ray here and there. You can't live without happiness. But, you also need to be cognizant of how your actions effect others, especially those close to you, and especially if that's a quality you've tried to instill in your own children. No wonder we're all screwed up in the head.

Now, on to chapter 2.

I think everyone in my family is insane in the membrane.

All of us kids (me, my 2 sisters, and my brother) were sexually abused as children. When we tried to tell people, we were told they didn't believe us. No more was said or done.

Now, my one sister is in a less-than-perfect relationship. But really, who's relationship IS perfect? Everyone seems to be ganging up on her, saying they're worried about her kids, etc. I don't think they're in danger, honestly. Another sister, I do worry about her child. She left a hot electric griddle in the middle of the floor and the child fell into it and burnt his hiney. First of all, why is she COOKING ON THE FLOOR? Secondly, it's not the first time he's been burnt on this damn skillet. If you know he has a, "thing" for the skillet, I certainly wouldn't be cooking with it on the floor, which is definitely within his reach. He had to go to the ER for his burns and, from what I understand, DHS got involved. I don't know the outcome.

The hubby and I tried to tell people they need to keep a closer eye on her. She's not careful with him at all. She's overdosed him on Tylenol to "shut him up" (those were her exact words), because he was crying a lot. Yeah, he's a baby and they cry. She kept her room FILTHY (think mold and mildew and dirty diapers).

Everyone turned their heads. Pretended they didn't hear us. As one person recently told me, "it was easier to not hear you."

These same "everyones" were pissed when people turned their heads and pretended not to hear us when we were telling of our sexual abuse.

Now, I don't THINK she intentionally burnt him. I also don't THINK J&J meant to hurt us when they did what they did. But, both actions are WRONG and people should not be turning their heads.

I guess, I'll just have to look at it as, I told who I needed to tell and I'll say my prayers that nothing else happens. If something does happen, I guess I'll know I did what I could, was allowed, to do and can say "toldya so."

Moving My Birthday

2009-11-24T19:04:00.004-06:00

I am moving my birthday. I was born November 26, but I don't like November much anymore. I think I'll move it to some time warm, maybe May? Yeah, I'll push it back to May 26. It'll be warm, but not too hot, nothing bad has ever happened to me in May, and, well, it just sounds like a nice time to have a birthday.

However, I will accept all gifts in November and May if anyone wants to give me anything (haha, yeah right).

Three Years Ago

2009-11-22T15:04:00.002-06:00

Three years ago today I said goodbye to my beautiful mom. Thinking about her today isn't any easier. The pain doesn't go away. I don't miss her any less. I still catch myself wanting to tell her stuff. I guess I don't know how to describe it other than, I just miss her. I just plain ol' miss her.

Kick My Own Ass

2009-11-18T20:39:00.003-06:00

I'd really like to go back in time and kick my own ass. I'm not going into detail, but suffice to say, I didn't always make the best choices in my actions and then didn't own up to the stuff I had done. I hurt people in the process and it still stings to this day.

Stupid People: Saturday Edition

2009-11-14T20:34:00.002-06:00

People are driving me bat shit insane. I move nearly 100 miles away from everything and they still drive me insane.

For instance, one person calls me up crying and wanting help finding a place to move and that her husband is terrible and blahblahblah. So, I provide her with information and suggestions on things she can do. Then, she tells me more or less to butt out and mind my own business. Uh OK, you asked for help. Guess I'll be telling them next time that I can't help them, I need to mind my own business.

I don't use names when I write about anyone/thing/where. Hell, sometimes I even change the sex (you know, if the person was originally a woman I say it was a man and vice versa). If you think a story is about you it may or may not be. I will never tell. If you feel guilty, well, that's your own problem maybe you should reevaluate yourself and your actions. I never usually say my sources either. So, never assume it was someone that you told. I have a way of finding out things that you would never have any way of knowing how I truly found out. I'm sneaky like that.

Another thing, don't write me text messages that I have to pay to read and respond to when you don't even know what you're talking about. For example, I got a message earlier that said something to the effect of "don't write stuff I tell you on FB". Sorry, but I didn't write jack shit. However, I did tell someone that lives closer to you about the problem in hopes that they could help.

Don't call me up and accuse me of stuff either. "Did you tell someone about this?" Uh, no, I have better things to do, like my husband and my homework.

I'm tired of all the drama, stupidity, and whatever else in my life. It honestly breaks my heart to think people are so stupid and careless and senseless. I'm about ready to tell everyone around me if they don't have something nice or positive to say, I don't want to hear it. If they can't use some common sense I don't want to hear about the negative outcome. I can ignore people and I guess that's what I'm going to have to start doing. If I don't like what they are saying or doing, I'll just ignore it. If they don't like what I have to say, they can ignore me too.

I guess, what I'm saying too is, I need a damn vacation. Maybe to some place nice and happy like Disney World.

Friday Edition of Stupid Humans

2009-11-13T16:27:00.002-06:00

I've had a bad last few days. People doing stupid things, saying stupid things, you get the point.

The hubby and I have been talking to "people" (by "people" I mean various humans in our life) and when we ask or just say something we get a variety of responses. For instance, Us: "The van is about to die." Them: "I can't get the DVD player to work." Another example? Us: "I wiped my ass." Them: "Did you eat food."

Here's an example of someone doing something stupid: Using an electric griddle. On the floor. Because they were too lazy to clear off a spot on their counter I guess? There is a toddler in that household. The adult in the house left the griddle on the floor, turned on. The toddler wakes up from a nap and some how falls butt-first into the hot griddle and burns his little tush. This isn't the first time the child has been burnt on the griddle. I think I would stop using the griddle and cook on the stove and definitely not on floor. I might use my brain too.

Another example of someone doing something stupid: I went to Wal-Mart the other day to make a return. I had the receipt. The lady behind the not-so-courteous counter told me I had to exchange said item for something exactly the same or something more expensive. She was a bitch the second I walked up to the counter. Why was she so stupid? I was in a BAD mood (PMS much?) and she was a witch to me from the moment I walked up to the counter. Then, she lied. I caught her on it. And, the item I was returning was expensive. I don't back down when I set my mind to it. I set my mind to it. Then, I told on her to the district manager and store manager who just happened to be strolling around the store that day. Stupid lady. The whole exchange took about 45 minutes. See? I am persistent.

There was more this week but, like I said, it's been a long week and I can't remember them all. I remember telling Mr. Phuckit the other day that everyone drank tard juice for breakfast.

Traveler's Insurance

2009-10-30T16:23:00.002-05:00

You can suck my ass. You made me grouchy and broke this morning all because of a stupid mistake that you say you can't fix. We'll see how quickly you "can't fix it" when the BBB and Insurance Board comes knocking at your door.

Huge Bell Pepper

2009-10-21T12:11:00.001-05:00

Huge Pepper
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Look how huge this sucker is!! It covers up nearly my whole hand!

Caramel Apple Pizza

2009-10-18T13:43:00.001-05:00

Caramel Apple Pizza
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

YUMMMY!!!

New View

2009-10-18T13:42:00.001-05:00

New View
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

This is the view from our front window now.

Slackers, Cheaters, and the People Who Let Them

2009-10-15T07:30:00.004-05:00

Being in school this fall, I've seen many different ways people study and do their homework. Some use different colored inks and index cards to make flash cards, some just go over their notes over and over again, and some don't seem to do anything at all.

I noticed the other day, while waiting for class to start, there were 3 girls from another class also sitting in the lobby. Two of the girls appeared to be studying for an upcoming test (they're not in my class, not that it makes any difference, but I'm just sayin'). Anyway, 2 of the girls appeared to be studying for a test when the 3rd girl pulls out her binder and what appears to be some homework she didn't get done. Now, I'm not sure of her situation, but it has been my experience that the instructors give you more than just a few minutes to do an assignment before it's due. Apparently, her homework wasn't done because she asks the other 2 girls if they had theirs done. Their answer was a resounding "yes". She then proceeds to go down the list of numbers, lets say questions 1-50, and asks them what they put for each answer. Sounds something like this: "What did you put for #1?" "What did you put for #2?" It went like this all the way until her assignment was done.

I'm sorry, but when I do my homework, it isn't always easy and it's time-consuming. Why give someone all the answers that didn't even bother to try and do their work? All the people in the particular building are going into some type of health care, weather it be HIM, nursing, physical therapy, emergency medical technician, etc. Do you really want someone who doesn't REALLY know the answers or what they're talking about taking care of your family member? I know I don't.

Don't get me wrong, I can see comparing your answers or talking about you homework if you had a tough time with a question or something like that, but just outright ask for each and every answer AND receive it? Bullshit. I think the girls that gave her the answers are just as stupid as she is. That's ok though, it should catch up with her when she does her certification for whatever field she's going into.

First Night

2009-10-11T09:02:00.003-05:00

We stayed our first night in the new place last night. It was so nice. We were busy little (er, big) bees yesterday and "went to town" and got a fridge at Wal-Mart, then went to the Dollar Tree to get our cheapy stuff, then over to the grocery store to stock our completely empty cupboards and empty fridge. That little adventure took almost 6 hours from the time we walked out the door until the time we walked back in the door. But, it is nice to have food in the cupboard and the fridge :) After all that though we were too pooped to cook though, so we went up to the gas station/cafe and ordered some dinner.

The gas station/cafe is AWESOME. I believe it is a Sinclair station but it's like a truck stop. There is a chicken restaurant, a Godfather's Express, and a sub sandwich shop in there. Everything we've gotten in there is delicious and fresh and very reasonably priced.

Anyway, we ate our dinner and I was in bed by about 9. I just woke up about 1/2 hour ago (it's now 9 a.m. That is the most and restful I've slept in months, even though we don't currently have a bed. It was nice to be in a warm, quiet, and dark place to sleep. Although I'm sure Hubby's back is going to kill him when he wakes up though (because mine was out-of-sorts and I don't even have a bad back), but I don't know what to do about that right now. I guess I'll just make sure he gets plenty of back rubs and stock up on the aspirin. We just need to get a bed asap. When I get paid next Friday I hope we can find some sort of suitable bed, air mattress or otherwise. We were thinking about getting another air mattress yesterday but got a fridge instead (money dictated we get one or the other, not both).

It was also nice to get up this morning and leisurely walk to the bathroom (not behind the trees or into Grandma's bathroom) and do the morning pee thing. Then leisurely get dressed and take the dogs out.

I'm even looking forward to doing my homework today. I'm guessing I have about an hour or so worth of work to do. I can actually sit at my desk and not be bothered and be warm. Maybe I'll actually be able to be comfortable enough to do my studying and homework I can accomplish my goal of being on the Dean's list.

I know one thing. No one is ever going to stand in the way of letting me and my little family (I count Hubby and the critters as my family) be successful. If helping someone is going to put my livelihood (job) at risk, then sorry, I can't help. If helping someone is going to put a huge strain on my marriage, sorry, I can't help. Me and my family come first. It may sound selfish, but I haven't lived that way and I believe it put us in a bad place (lost my job, lived in a tent).

The Ink Has Dried

2009-10-07T12:24:00.003-05:00

Ok, the ink has dried and I no longer feel in fear of jinxing myself by talking about this. We got a new place to live. I say "place" because it's not a real house. Home yes, house no. It's in a teeny, tiny town of about 800 people. It's the building that used to house City Hall which was built in 1895 and the previous owner remodeled it and turned it into a 2 bedroom apartment/condo/rowhouse. It's fairly big, about 1,100 square feet and even has a decent-sized back yard. It's right on Main Street and is still zoned commercial. So, after we have it paid off (in 3!!!! years) we can move on and turn it into some type of business and not have to worry about zoning. It's about 12 miles from the nearest "city" but the drive is EASY-not many hills and no curves, just 2 turns.

I think we're planning on staying there starting this weekend. I'm excited.

I took pictures as we walked around yesterday, but, I'm feeling lazy today and don't feel like walking out to the garage to grab the camera cord so I can upload pictures. I'll post pictures some other time.

Oh. And, I just read in the paper, that the only Avon lady in that town is retiring. A whole town of people looking for a new Avon lady? Score!! I'll be easy for them to find too-I'll be on Main Street!

Watch out Mini Town, here come the Phuckits!

Craziness

2009-09-28T18:56:00.002-05:00

I've been horrible about writing. The Mister brought it to my attention today :) There's so much crap going on around here. Still living in this Godforsaken tent. Still in school (and doing very well, I might add, especially given the living current living situation). There are some other things in the making, but I don't dare write it down right now for fear I'll jinx myself, us. I'll write more as things progress and, knock on wood, settle down. For now though, I'll drink my Smirnoff, put on some jammies, and hopefully not freeze to death tonight.

Two Places

2009-09-01T12:23:00.001-05:00

Wow, I'm in 2 places I never thought I'd be. Wanna know? Nursing school and living in a tent.

Things Changing

2009-08-06T17:21:00.001-05:00

My, my, my...It's amazing how quickly things can change in the span of a few short hours or just by one telephone call....

Greedy Bitches

2009-08-03T20:33:00.003-05:00

I'm feeling a bit irritable this evening and need to get something off my chest.

It's about people trying for more children. Notice, I said more. That means they already have at least 1 child.

I know a few people like this. They get their panties all in a bunch because they've "been trying forever" to have a child. Excuse me, you already have a child. "I'm not sure it's ever going to happen." Excuse me again, but it already did. Remember, you have your older child(ren). They act like the world is going to end and the sky is going to fall. Why can't they just be thankful they were able to have the previous child(ren)?? Why do they think they have to announce the arrival of their period every. damn. month? What, do you think you get a prize when it shows up? I'd be rich in presents if I got a prize every time my period showed up.

There are people, like me, who can't even GET pregnant. How do you think it feels to know your body won't even do its job once? We get poked, prodded, blood taken, stuff shoved up our yingyang, take pills, and still the body won't do the deed.

Then, month, after month, after month, everyone has to listen to you, Madam I Already Have a Child, because your body "failed" you again. I have no pity for those people. Your body didn't fail you. It produced a child. I refuse to feel sorry for you. Be thankful your body worked at least once.

Supper Pictures

2009-07-28T21:13:00.005-05:00

Here's the main course. Grilled pork chop, slice of tomato, salad, and sun tea.

And here's my dessert. Chocolate peanut butter ice cream. MMM!

Supper Tonight

2009-07-28T16:23:00.003-05:00

This is going to sound strange, but I'm excited for supper tonight. I went and got a few groceries earlier today, and they had some very nice looking stuff. I got pork chops for $1.99/pound and some Romaine lettuce for 99 cents. The hubby is going to grill the pork chops and I'll make us each a bowl of salad. Oh, and we have some ice cream in the freezer for dessert and sun tea to drink. See, it's nothing super-spectacular, but I love when I go to the store and stuff just looks good. I may post pictures just so I can remember :)

I Feel Like Someone's Watching Me

2009-07-27T23:39:00.003-05:00

I was just reading my stats. I've known there are people out there reading my stupid little entries, but you don't have to be shy. Well, unless you're the person who found me on google by using the words "Bruce Jenner diaper floaties". I don't want to talk to you, you're weird. Some of you, I have my suspicions who you are. Qwest and Mediacom in Des Moines, Iowa? I'm pretty sure I know who you are. Principal in Johnston, Iowa? That I'm almost 100% sure I know who it is. Poland? No fucking clue. I mean, I've been called a Pollock, but I'm not from there and I certainly don't know anyone from there. Mountain View, California. No idea either.

When I started this blog, I had all intentions of being anonymous. No real names. No clues to where I live. And, certainly no identifying pictures. I wanted a place to write where I could be anonymous. A place where I could vent and people wouldn't know I was bitching about them. A place where I could be the unedited, uncensored version of me. I like to think I'm very careful with what I say in person-I don't like to hurt anyone's feelings or make them uncomfortable.

Well, this is still that place, I'm just not so anonymous anymore. If I want to bitch, I'll bitch. If I want to be silly, I'll be silly. If I want to be vulgar and rude, I'll be vulgar and rude. Just be forewarned, this is the raw version and if you don't like it. Don't read it. If you don't mind, pull up a chair and stay awhile. You could even say hello and let me know if my suspicions on who you are are correct. And, if you don't know me, introduce yourself.

Benjamin Franklin .22 Airgun Pistols

2009-07-23T10:21:00.002-05:00

Today's special is a pair of Benjamin Franklin .22 Airgun Pistols. VERY RARE. Come see us http://www.bbairguns.com/cgi-bin/item.pl?item=8081

They would be on Ebay, but Ebay doesn't allow guns of any type :)

Airplane Propeller for sale!

2009-07-22T19:19:00.001-05:00

We recently came across this and now are selling it on Ebay. Know anyone interested? Send 'em my way!

CURTISS JN-4 JENNY? WOOD AIRPLANE PROPELLER 1916-1918MADE BY CANADIAN AEROPLANES LIMITED 99INCHES 8 LUG
Item number: 270431520834

Iowa Girl Dreams

2009-07-19T14:51:00.001-05:00

Butter Corn
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Nice Ass

2009-07-16T09:55:00.001-05:00

My husband just walked by the room I'm in. He really does have a nice butt :) :) :)

PLEASE

2009-07-10T10:29:00.001-05:00

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE WORK. PLEASE!!

I Just Don't Know

2009-07-05T17:49:00.002-05:00

I don't understand some things going on around here.

I know a lady who has tried to kick her husband out a couple of times now. She has a son who is about 1-1/2. The husband does not do anything around the house, does not have any type of job, has been physically and mentally abusive (he's gone to jail for the physical), has children with other women that he doesn't take care of physically or monetarily (see no job), and supposedly doesn't drink but I know for a fact smokes marijuana. He cannot be trusted to even watch the 1-1/2-year-old. The lady told me that she came home from working an 8 hour shift to find the child in the crib with a diaper that had been poopy so long it was crusty, his first thing he said to her was "mama eat" and daddy passed out on the bed in the other room.

The most recent time she tried to kick him out he went to a person's house "who might be a lesbian" and lived while he was gone. Ok, for one thing how is someone "might be a lesbian"?? Was he helping her decide?

She let him back in some time this week.

I don't know what he says or does to work his way back in, but he must do something.

I don't know how you could let someone back in like that. Let them sleep in your bed, "watch" your child, etc. It wouldn't to matter to me if he was my husband and the father's child. No way in hell.

I'm not saying my marriage is perfect (God, knows its not), we have our problems, but it's nothing that can't be fixed with time. I'm all for people working on their relationships, but I think this situation is just ridiculous and dangerous.

I hope she finds the strength to leave him some day for good. She doesn't deserve to be hurt and the little boy definitely doesn't deserve it. If he was going to be a good husband and father, he would be by now.

Avon Calling...

2009-07-01T14:08:00.003-05:00

I am officially an old lady. Yesterday, I signed up to sell Avon. Today, I set up my Avon-approved website. I've already taken one order. Now, I just need to figure out places to hand out brochures and let people know they can order online in the comfort of their own home, 24 hours a day.

Come by and see me at http://www.youravon.com/mromine See you there!

To Do (mile long) List

2009-06-23T09:32:00.008-05:00

Because I'm a glutton for punishment I'm writing out my to do list. I know it's long.

Buy postage stamps. DONE
Scan copies of financial documents so I don't have to get them, again. DONE
Mail student loan documents. DONE
Mail transcript request. DONE
Ebay ads and pictures.
Take a package to UPS. DONE
Weed the garden. HALF DONE.
Mow.
Dog baths.
Work on C's quilt.
Laundry. DONE
Shave my legs.
Clean the rabbit cage. DONE
Transplant plants from mother-in-law.
Start pricing stuff for yard sale.
Price stuff for Brass Armadillo. DONE
Win the lottery.

Father's Day

2009-06-21T22:39:00.000-05:00

Happy Father's Day Daddy-o!

New AC

2009-06-20T13:39:00.001-05:00

Day 144
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

My in-laws are THE BEST! They found out we didn't have AC of any type, so they called us up this morning (on THIER anniversary) and told us they had a surprise. They showed up with this window unit and hubby and father-in-law installed it in our bedroom. There will be no nasty diapers put in this one! I think the dogs will appreciate it too.

Chunky Diaper Furnace Floaties

2009-06-20T13:38:00.001-05:00

Chunky Diaper Furnace Floaties
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Here the shit that was in the furnace motor after washing it out. I now know for sure it was a diaper. How? Because at the very bottom of the furnace pieces had dropped down that had not been melted or totally destroyed. Those pieces had pictures on it like only a diaper would have.

Arrggghhhh, Gross!! And Pissed Off!!!

2009-06-16T13:56:00.004-05:00

We've been having problems with our heater/central air conditioning since before Christmas. It started out as the heat not feeling warm enough, then it didn't kick on and off when it was supposed to. Now, the AC isn't working. We thought maybe it was a computer component gone bad, but haven't had the money to have it officially looked at. Well, the Mister decided to check it out a little further today while I was watching N3, since it's starting to get really warm and muggy in these parts.

He started by taking the motor out. He saw this "debris" in there. Upon further inspection it looks and feels like the makings of a diaper. It's shredded up (from the fan) and melted in places (because of the heat) but it sure smells and looks like diaper material. That explains why when the AC and heater started before it smelled like crap (literally). So nasty.

Why the fuck would someone put a diaper in there?? It either had to be put in via a duct (there is one in each room of this house) or where the filter is supposed to go.

If I ever find out who did that and why, their ass is grass and there WILL be hell to pay.

Asiatic Lilly Bloom

2009-06-15T14:01:00.001-05:00

Asiatic Lilly Bloom
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Pride Parade

2009-06-15T12:11:00.004-05:00

I went to the Pride Parade downtown yesterday with Little Sister and N3. Neither of us had never been to the Pride Parade before. I'm so glad we went. Everyone was so nice, made sure N3 (even though he's still quite young) got lots of goodies, candy, and even a condom (which he proudly held up and displayed to us). And, it was a lot of fun.

I even saw some people I recognized; mainly the ladies from www.fosteringpride.wordpress.com I'm not sure how much I should disclose here, because I don't personally know them, but because of their courage, they may have had a little bit to do with making gay marriage legal in my state.

Little Sister and I took tons of pictures, but they're on her camera, so I'll post some either to here or Flickr whenever she unloads her camera.

Our New Neighbor

2009-06-13T19:13:00.003-05:00

Here's our new neighbor. She likes to climb in the trees...

and the garbage can.

I'm Baaackkk!

2009-06-12T21:37:00.000-05:00

The internet came back to our house. Yay!

Shameless Stealing

2009-05-05T10:18:00.005-05:00

I stole this from C's Facebook page.
A - Age: 28
B - Bed size: Queen.
C - Chore you hate: Taxes.
D - Dogs names: Jessi and Cookie.
E - Essential start your day item: A trip outside.
F - Favorite color: Purple.
G - Gold or Silver: I'd have to say gold as most of my jewelry is gold.
H - Height: 5' 10'
I - Instruments you play(ed): Piano, cello.
J - Job title: Ex-medical transcriptionist.
K - Kid(s): None, yet.
L - Living arrangements: With hubby and pets.
M - Mom's name: Lillian aka Lil.
N - Nickname(s): Maze, Mazey, Aunt Mary, Muh (thats what N2 calls me).
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: None.
P - Pet Peeve: Mouth noises (lip smacking, tongue smacking) eww. Tardiness. Disorganization. Filth.
Q - Quote from a movie: "It's not enough" Blow.
R - Right or left handed: Right, but I can do stuff well with my left.
S - Sibling(s): One brother and two sisters and one step-brother and one step-sister.
T - Time you wake up: Usually early. This morning it was 6:00 a.m.
U- Underwear: Definitely.
V- Vegetable you dislike: Cooked spinach (I like it raw).
W - Ways you run late: I can't remember the last time I was late. I guess I'd have to say by traffic.
X - X-rays you've had: Foot and teeth and HSG.
Y - Yummy food you make: Lasagna, potato salad, angel food cake, stir fry. I don't normally make stuff I don't like unless it's something special for the Mister.
Z - Zoo favorite: Monkeys or Otters.

Ch, ch, changes

2009-05-01T16:21:00.002-05:00

There are about to be some wonderful changes taking place in this household. Nothing specific is being disclosed yet, but it IS in the workings. :)

Banana Song

2009-04-28T18:47:00.000-05:00

I think this belongs in the WTF?!? files http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5kWoVQJhhU

Winner, winner chicken dinner

2009-04-26T16:14:00.001-05:00

Winner, winner chicken dinner
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Delicious!

Springtime Memories

2009-04-25T11:19:00.005-05:00

I don't talk much on here about my childhood. I should, but I don't. With the exception of a few very bad things, I think I had a great childhood. I consider myself lucky.

Last night's lightning and thunder got me thinking about the house I grew up in. It was a white, 2 story house that sat on a corner. My bedroom was upstairs. I remember Little Sister and I arranging our bedroom so that the heads of our beds were by the one window in our room. It seemed like we were always moving stuff around, but my favorite place for the bed was right by the window. From my bed I could sit and watch a thunderstorm. I loved, and still love, watching lightning. I remember many nights laying in my bed watching lightning and eventually falling asleep.

I could also sit on my bed and look out that window and feel like I was in the trees. Our front yard had a huge Maple tree in it. I loved looking out the window in the springtime and finally, after a long winter, seeing little buds forming. Then, as the spring progressed I could see little leaves that would eventually turn into huge, hand-sized leaves.

I miss those days and will never forget them.

But, I'm also looking forward to new memories. In the house I live in now, I can see the oak tree in our front yard out the bedroom window. It's not on the second story, but the branches are low enough I can see the buds and tiny leaves forming. I can also look out the window and watch a storm roll in from the west. The head of my bed? Is on the north, right underneath a window. I slept with it open a couple of nights ago. I haven't slept that well in a long time.

Roses

2009-04-24T16:41:00.001-05:00

Roses
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

I feel better now.

Trashy Thursday

2009-04-23T22:28:00.002-05:00

Today sucked.

I thought I felt like writing, but I don't. I've been sitting here at the computer for probably the last 30 minutes and only wrote the title and "today sucked".

I'm going to bed.

Wednesday's Dinner

2009-04-22T19:16:00.001-05:00

Wednesday's Dinner
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Strawberry Ice Cream Cake

2009-04-21T17:57:00.001-05:00

Strawberry Ice Cream Cake
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

We made this the other night when Rachel, Nick, and Jagger came over. We ate the ENTIRE thing that night so I couldn't take any pictures. So, the hubby and I decided we wanted more so I made another just for us. It is so good and refreshing!

2009-04-21T17:54:00.001-05:00

Aww, poor horses :( http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090420/ap_on_re_us/dead_polo_horses

Home made pizza

2009-04-20T16:33:00.001-05:00

Home made pizza
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

This was supper last night (Sunday). Made the crust from scratch. So yummy!

Creeping Charlie

2009-04-19T14:27:00.001-05:00

Creeping Charlie
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Dandelion

2009-04-19T14:26:00.001-05:00

Dandelion
Originally uploaded by mrs.phuckit

Delicious Friday

2009-04-17T20:36:00.002-05:00

Today was a good day. It started out with the Mister putting a couple of chickens in the smoker for supper. Then, I made some home made potato salad and an angel food strawberry ice cream cake. Little sister, her husband, and N2 came over for supper. I would've taken pictures of the food, but we ate it all and there is no food to take pictures of.

A tulip in the back yard!

This is the closest thing I have to a picture of this evening's meal. A picture of the smoking smoker. The chickens are inside.

Little sister and N2 on the swings at the park. I think it's a sweet picture :)

N2, the swinging ham!

Tuesday Misc.

2009-04-14T21:15:00.003-05:00

Got this ice cream the other night. Yum!

These were in my fridge...MIL made them. Thought they were pretty-then I made deviled eggs out of them :)

Cute Nephew (N2). He's SO easy to take care of!

My Favorite Pair

2009-04-12T16:24:00.002-05:00

So comfy, and my hubby picked them out :)

This 'n That, food edition

2009-04-11T21:35:00.002-05:00

Supper tonight: Home-made lasagna and garlic bread.

Deviled eggs for tomorrow.

White cupcakes with strawberry frosting for hubby, he's been asking for cupcakes forever so I finally obliged :)

Chicken Nuggets

2009-04-10T14:12:00.004-05:00

The Mister refused to eat this chicken nugget last night; said something about it looking a little, uh, phallic, for his taste.

Everything's Coming Up Leafy

2009-04-09T16:57:00.003-05:00

Everything is popping out of the ground! Now, if the weather would warm up, I'd be very happy!

One of my tulips. It even has a bud!

My mini rose. Look at all those leaves!

My raspberry bush. It'll be a while, I believe, before I get any berries from it, but at least it's leafy!

Smoked Brisket

2009-04-05T14:22:00.004-05:00

So, so yummy! Mr. Phuckit let it soak in a marinade all week then threw it in the smoker this morning. I'm going to take some to my dad later. I think he and C deserve it after watching all the grandkids for the whole weekend every other week.

Furry Phuckits

2009-04-04T17:12:00.004-05:00

Because my brain has turned to mush from cold medicine I am posting pictures of my cute pets instead :)

Colds; Best fun ever. Not really.

2009-04-03T17:17:00.003-05:00

The Mister and I have had colds all week. So, I've decided to think of fun things to do with a cold:

Losing your voice? Call people on the phone and see how long you can talk before your voice completely goes away.
Go to the Wal-Mart toilet paper/paper towel aisle. Have a coughing fit while there. The kind of coughing fit that you either pee your pants or fart. I bet people will wonder if those farts were wet. Have coughing fits at home. Pee your pants. See how many pairs of underwear/pants you can go through in one day.
Have a coughing fit. See if you can hold your cough until you get to the bathroom and sit on the toilet (in case all your pants are wet from the previous trick).
Take Coricidin. Get constipated for the first time in your life. No, greasy McDonald's food won't, I mean might not, cure it either.

Not that we did these things, they are just things we THOUGHT might be fun for other people.

Now. On a totally different note. Iowa legalized gay marriage! Go Iowa!